Hmm...

Well, this past week started out like any other...a night at Phouse...but this time, no real drama...thank goodness.  Overall the week went well, nothing too exciting, but decent nonetheless.

Monday was a little interesting.  I said bye to Nube (who was visiting us as his vacation).  Very cool to meet Nube...I hope he enjoyed his stay here  After Nube left, I took Seth & Angel out to run a few errands and to take care of things.  First stop of the day was the mall.  We went with the intent to pick up job apps.  The few places we hit, actually said they were out and to do them online...seems all are going that way.  That wasn't the interesting part though.  

While we were at the mall, I wanted to get a smoothie...so we hit the smoothie stand.  This guy was standing there, starring us down hardcore.  At first I thought he was actually checking us out...but nope!!!  Seth and Angel were right behind me, Angel reaching into Seth's back pocket to grab his phone.  Well, this guy goes OFF on us, yelling "that's fucking disgusting, nobody wants to see that, do you think people like that, that's gross, stop it, you're fucking disgusting....etc."  He just kept going and going.  I spoke up and told him "don't look at it then...turn your head forward, don't look," and kept repeating that when he said something.  I stepped up , crossed my arms, and just stood there...but ooo, he pissed off Angel.  Angel tried pushing me out of the way so he could step up...but I wouldn't budge.  The guy just kept going & going.  He tried to stare us down even more...which just made me laugh.  I told him, "you don't intimidate us!"  Then as he was going to say something again, the smoothie lady said "if any of you want a smoothie, you will all shut-up and not say anything to each other, do I make myself clear?!"  That worked, we said yes, the guy said yes ma'am....but he kept starring.  LOL, too funny.  He walked away trying to get in our faces...we just smirked.  For all the times Seth says stuff & gets people going, he stayed quiet this time.  I was really hoping he'd use his wit to get the guy to throw a punch....that's all I was waiting for, but no such luck.  Wow, that got the blood going...would have been funny to have 3 "fags" beat that guy up. 

Anyway, after that & a little cool down period, we headed home and did our usual....chill/nap and chat.  Fun day all in all...lol.

Tuesday was slightly more productive, but not much.  Seth & Angel ended up staying the night at Rich's on Monday...so I picked them up from there.  From there, we drove to Sears to get applications for work.  Yes, the same place Peter worked for.  That took forever...the whole trip was over 3 hours...gotta love traffic..NOT!  After that, was chat...and a small get together with 4 of Tom Moran's boys.  That made for a not so fun evening, but what else would you expect from that type of crowd.  **Side note - Jessie seemed cool though - this does NOT apply to him**  After they left, I went to bed and *tried* to sleep.

Wednesday was a lot more fun.  I got up, left...and hung out with Clay all day.  We started out playing darts at a local bar, then swung by the mall, then left there and headed to a friend's house.  We caught up with Tom there and chilled most of the evening.  It was cool to relax out of the house..and catch up with them.  Hard to explain...but it was a little sense or normalcy.  I was off chat that night, but came home anyway...and tried to sleep.

Seeing a pattern here yet?..yes? no?...I'm having a hard time sleeping again. :-(  I need to turn that around quick.  But on to the next day (yes, I know my grammar sucks...oh well).   Thursday was a lazy day.  I slept in until 3 (again, I hard a hard time falling asleep), called on a few jobs, searched for a few more online, and that was pretty much it.  Mind you, I've been calling the dealership everyday about the bike...STILL having problems with them.  Once again, that's Biker Bob's Harley Davidson in Taylor, MI....DO NOT USE THEM.  I was off chat this night, but stayed in...just wasn't feeling it...not in the mood to go anywhere.  Eh, oh well...and yet another restless night with little sleep.

Friday...UGH.  Yep, that time of the week again.  Cleaning day!  After the usual house meeting & cleaning, I packed everyone up (Seth & Angel) and headed out.  Where to?...somewhere Seth didn't want to be...guesses?  Come on...anyone?...nope, not the doctor, not the ER....  We were off to Angel's house to drop him off.  Why didn't Seth want to be there???  it meant he had to drop off his bf and not see him for a few days.  I'm willing to bet, this will be a LONG few days.  After dropping Angel off and hugs & kisses, we headed back home and vegged out. 

So this brings us to Saturday.  Today (Saturday), I had a bit of a surprise when I woke up.  I checked my email as usual, as well as missed calls & messages.  Turns out Apple called.  Apparently they had a few positions open up, and asked if I was still interested in joining their team.  Of course I accepted!  I cleaned up, headed there...and filled out some necessary paperwork.  I'll be starting training next Friday...so we'll see how it goes.  No, I will not stop looking for work...I'm still applying, keeping options open...but this is a step in the right direction.  So I'm happy.  From there, I went home, grabbed Jay (who was visiting for the day), headed to Walmart, picked up a little food, then came back and did chat.  Nothing too exciting going on tonight...just diaries.  Yes, you read right...diaries were pushed up a day, so I apologize for it lacking a little...one day short...lol.  Anyway, have an awesome week...I know I'll try.

Interesting week...

Wow, well...it's definitely been a different week for me.  This week, my goal was to start out & stay positive throughout the week.  For the most part, I didn't do too bad...few ups & downs, but nothing MAJOR.  After the last diary, I hit PHouse with the guys...trying to be in a decent mood.  All in all, the night went well.  I met several people, saw a few cute guys, got a few numbers, and had fun.  While about to head out, I was making my rounds and saying bye to people...one of the cute boys I met (Angel) followed me out, and as I was saying bye to another (Sebastian), Angel saw Sebastian...kind of got into with him, said a few things...then parted ways.  I found out later that they were ex's.  Oops!  The two boys I meet, ex's...and on bad terms??!!  That's the gay world for you...small & often times, drama filled.  Anyway, both were cool to me....Sebastian invited me to Denny's (which I declined because of time restraints)...and Angel got my number, so we could set something up for the next day.

So next day rolls around.  This was a sad day, but happy at the same time.  Sad - because I had to say bye to Peter.  Seth, "applicant Angel," Peter, and I piled into the car to drop Peter off at the airport.  I was sad to say bye, but happy for Peter at the same time....I know he was eager to see Mav.  I'm not supposed to say this...but someone else in the car also got a little emotional...which was different to see from this individual.  So from there (the airport), we drove to Angel's place to drop him off.  It was a decent ride overall.  Seth gave his fair-well kiss to Angel, said bye, and got in the front seat.  Now, for those of you who have been keeping up, you know that Seth & I haven't been on the best of terms for a bit.  That made this car ride, that much more interesting.  We actually managed to go the whole ride home without killing each other.  It started out very quiet....both of us watching what we said.  Seth ended up apologizing, as did I....not for any specific event, more because of the way we treated each other.  So we got that out of the way....kind of/sort of opened up a little (but not a lot, not yet).  All in all, it was a decent ride home.

From there, the story actually starts.  Later that afternoon...I had a boy come over.  A boy that I had met the previous night at Phouse...named Angel.  To clear any confusion, this is NOT "applicant Angel."  This will now be Angel 2 (or my Angel).  So angel 2 came over and hung out for a little.  We hit Fairvilla up (I was interested to see what it was like), talked, then parted.  I had to get to chat, and he had to get ready for his evening.  I ended up meeting him after chat, at PHouse, where we talked more and I met his roommates.  He ended up coming home with me on my motorcycle & seemed to love it, and he stayed the night...which was awesome...I really needed someone to cuddle with.

Next morning, we woke up...he woke me up...and we hung out ALL day.  It was a lot of fun...it got me out of the house, with someone cool.  We went back to his place during the day, layed out by the pool (which I got burned again), watched a movie, then drove him back here.  During the movie, he sent me a cute text...asking me to be his boyfriend.  I gave it some thought, definitely thought it was rushing it a LOT....but I said "what the hell," something new, something unexpected, something different...let's see where this goes.  So I said "yes."  Yes, less than 24 hours, I had a bf....wow...just, um.....wow.  It's cool though....he stayed the night again, we cuddled, watched a movie, then passed out.  Granted, it's new & unexpected...but I was enjoying myself.

So we wake up, now on Wednesday, I drive him home, kiss him bye....turn around, and drive home.  Wednesday was a pretty laid back day.  I was up early (for a change), that I didn't know what to do with myself.  I went to lunch with Zac & Chase....which was cool.  First time I've kind of hung out with Chase (outside the house).  After that, I hit up Paradise with Clay & Tom.  We did our usual, socialize, play darts, and just chill.  I'll definitely be hanging out with both of them, even outside this house...they're really cool.  After Paradise, I went back home to do chat.  I talked with Angel afterwards, then just passed out.

Thursday was another chill day.  I took care of some grocery shopping, hung out all day, went to dinner with Chase, then came back and did chat.  Dinner was nice, we talked...got to know just a "little" more about Chase.  That night I had late chat.  Angel surprised me though, buzzing over when I have chat...and he ended up staying the night.  It was a nice surprise to say the least...I was happy to see him.  I guess he made a little effort to socialize with Seth & his Angel...which was cool.  Decent night overall.

Friday, well...let's just say Friday was a weird day for me.  Not sure why, but I was in a mood.  I took Seth & Angel to get some stuff taken care of.  While doing so, I had made plans to hang with my Angel, but ended up ignoring his calls later in the evening.  No, it wasn't something he did wrong, yes...I was a total ass for it.  Honestly, I didn't know what to say...or how to act.  I just wasn't feeling it...didn't want to deal with anyone that night.  I got so stressed, I ended up leaving the house randomly, late at night...and just drove around.  Obviously, this worried Angel...and irritated him at the same time...I don't blame him.

The next day (Saturday), after a horrible nights sleep, I got up to numerous missed calls & text messages.  Angel was not happy.  He didn't know what to think...what he did wrong (if anything).  I went thru most of the day, debating what to say...how to *try* to smooth things...at least a little.  I liked him, I still do...but idk.  I think we rushed things way too fast.  I told him I'm a relationship type of person, and I stand by that....but I have to build up to that relationship.  I ended up calling him later in the evening and told him that I wasn't ready...just not yet.  He wasn't happy, to say the least.  Again, I can't blame him at all...I take full responsibility.  I was an ass ignoring him....and I feel bad about it.  It's something I need to work on....being open with my feelings.  I understand where he's coming from, I understand he's hurt, an I know it doesn't make it better....but I did/do like him....I'd like to get to know him more....but that's up to him now.  Either way, I respect his decision...and regardless, I wish him the best.  He'll probably never believe that, but that's all I can say & offer.  I wish you the best Angel!

I skipped a few parts of Saturday...so I'll hit on those briefly.  During the say, I hung out with Seth & his Angel and Nube.  We went to lunch, then dropped Seth's Angel off at his place.  After that, we came back home and I caught up with Jay (at least for a bit).  Always cool seeing Jay...very good guy.

Fast forward now...Sunday, day of rest....Seth woke me up to get his bf Angel.  We picked him up, met his mom, went to friends of his (Angel's), hit the pool, and relaxed for a few hours.  Everyone seemed nice...very warm.  From the pool, we hit Savoy and played darts (of course), came home, did our chats, then got ready for the club.  After everyone was primped & preened, we went to Savoy (for cheap drinks) then to PHouse (also with Nube).  The night wasn't bad...little slow, but not bad.  I did run into (or see at least) my Angel...though, we never talked or made eye contact.  I wasn't worried so much, but just didn't want to start anything.  I guess he had a nice chat with everyone else though.  Oh well.  After the club, we came home and had a small get-together.  Nothing too special...but nice nonetheless.  Just had a few cute guys over and had decent conversation.  We also had Joey & Robbie over (certainly not strangers to the house).  It's always cool seeing them though.  If all works out, hopefully I'll be grabbing lunch with Joey later this weekend.  Anyway, that's pretty much it.  Like I said, all in all...it was a decent week.  Few bumps here and there....but when isn't there.  Hope everyone has an awesome week.  I'm going to shoot for another positive week! :-)

Pointless...

Well, it's been one of those pointless weeks.  Absolutely nothing worthwhile happened.  Basically one of those - eat, sleep, wake up, deal with people & blah, blah, blah weeks.

I wish I could BS this whole journal like some people can...but I'm not that good with my words.  So plain and simple, this week sucked.  My own fault, I know...but doesn't change the fact that it was "a week of my life, that I'll never get back."

Monday, I drove with Jonathan to drop off Seth at the Tampa house.  I guess he was supposed to either fill a void, or get applicants...or who knows what.  The good thing that came of that day....I got to know Jonathan a little bit better, on the drive back to Orlando.  We stopped at a truck stop so Jonathan could smoke and he managed to get recognized by someone, because of CBL.  That was a little weird, but I guess it's normal for him..it didn't phase him.  It's cool see different sides of Jonathan...in & out of the house, near people...and alone.  He seems like a cool guy, one I hope to get to know a little more while here.  Zac is probably the only person here who I haven't had a chance, to get to know...hopefully that'll change.  I know he keeps busy with the site and the house...so it'll be a challenge.

Tuesday was a typical day for me.  Yes, that means I slept in yet again.  I pretty much relaxed around the house, went grocery shopping (kind of), did chat, then hit Savoy.  While there, I saw Russell.  I did actually ask him out, which he agreed to.  We'll see it it ever happens.  Seems when most people say yes, it's to be nice...and it never actually occurs.  Oh well, such is life.  After seeing him, I called it an early night...wasn't feeling too well.  Not sure what it is, but all week, I haven't been feeling quite up to par.  Haven't been able to sleep, stomach all torn up...stressed out. :-/

Wednesday was a bit of a let down, but expected at the same time.  For those that recall, I had an interview with Apple on Sunday....and this was the day that I heard back.  They emailed me, saying that they're going to go a different route...with people who better meet today's needs.  We all know group speaking/collaboration isn't my strong suite...definitely something I need to work on.  Whether it'll happen or not, I don't know.  I'm not really motivated to change right now.  I know I have the skill-set & the knowledge....but it's all about sales.  If you can sell yourself, then you're golden...even if you don't know sh*t!!!  Anyway, after hearing from Apple, I drove Jonathan to the store, picked up Peter from work (his last day), had a friend over (Jay of course), chilled around the house, did chat, then hit Savoy with Jonathan.  Yes, that's right....Jonathan went to Savoy...with me, no less.  We had a good time.  We ended up meeting Rich there, then Jonathan got a few drinks in him...played darts with me...and did his usual thing...got social :-)  It was cool though, fun hanging out.

Thursday, I took Peter to the store....pretty much lounged again.  Another day of not feeling well, so I layed low.  The night before, I promised Jonathan I'd go with him to PI...which I did.  I had one of the later chats...so I ended up meeting them/him there.  I didn't stay too long...just enough to make an appearance.  PI isn't really my thing..music sucks, people - not so cute, and I just get a weird vibe.  I followed thru on my promise though, that's what mattered.  I also left at the perfect time, avoided dealing with the whole drunk gang.  I'm glad they at least have a night to get trashed together.  It means I can pick the one night I don't want to deal with anyone.

Now that half the house is leaving/gone, it'll be interesting though.  I'll still be hanging with Clay & Tom a lot...but they'll be busy (as expected).  Peter is gone...so the house won't be the same at all.  I'm definitely going to miss them...I honestly don't know how I'm going to deal with the few remaining.  Obviously, I'm going to watch what I say...and NOT put my true feelings here...as people do read this, then react.  So, to keep things simple, I'll keep it to myself!  What does that mean for my interactions here?...well, I'll treat as if I do the real world...I'll ignore it!!!...plain and simple!

Friday, again...another shitty day.  I woke up throwing up & missed an interview because of it.  Worst case, it doesn't come thru...not too worried about that particular job...but certainly going to try to reschedule.  I still have my integrity to maintain (make all the jokes you want).  After we figured out that the furnace was ON...which would explain why it was so f*cking hot...and probably the thing making me throw up, we cleaned.  Yep, that's right...it was cleaning day again...laundry room, theater room, commons & bathroom.  Not so fun!  I also had to take pics of my motorcycle, to show the dealership the damage done while it was shipped.  Hopefully, they'll actually do something about it.  Who knows though, wouldn't be a first that they f*cked up.  Another buyer beware - DO NOT USE BIKER BOB'S in Taylor, Michigan.

Saturday was much better...but only because I was gone half the day.  It started out just by relaxing...hung out near the pool, went swimming, worked on a tan...and just did my own thing.  I met Clay & Tom at a wine party/benefit.  That was a lot of fun, got to meet new people and experience something different (than the norm.) here in FL.  I miss parties like that...parties where people have respect & class.  After the party, I hit Savoy & did my usual...played darts.  From there, I went to Pulse.  It was fun, little slow...but nice to go again.  It had been awhile since I went last time.  Couple cute boys there, one who's number I got.  We'll see if that goes anywhere.....at least make another friend?  Went home from there, tried to sleep...but couldn't - nothing new there.

Sunday...it was fun.  I got to hang with Clay & Tom...and Peter on their last day at CBL.  We went to Tampa and hit Hard Rock Casino.  Fortunately, I brought a very limited amount of cash...only enough that I was prepared to lose.  After 3 hrs or slots...I walked out with $5 less than when I had started...definitely worth it.   It was worth getting out of the house, spending time with really cool people, and just doing something new.  Again, I'm really going to miss Clay & Tom...and Peter...A LOT!!!  As for tonight, the plan is to hit PHouse.  I'll be going alone, one...not that I really have a choice, but two...so I don't have to deal with people.  I can do my own thing on my own time.  Anyway, I know this was short...not a whole lot happened this week.  For those that read the daily happenings, and did the assignment I had posted...you are truly awesome people!  You made a difference in someone's life...something they won't forget.  However small it was, it matters...and you matter!  Thanks!  Everyone else...have an awesome week.

Blah, blah, blah....

Hmmm, where to start?  I must say, I don't have nearly as much to write this week (compared to my roommates).  Seems the few nights I decided NOT to go out...I missed a lot (which is a good thing).  Nothing too exciting happened with this week...I pretty much laid low (all but Monday morning at least).

Monday started out a little different for me.  Not sure if it was the lack of sleep...or just high energy.  Those who were fortunate enough to catch (for it will not happen often)...caught a bit of a show.  For whatever reason, I  was full of energy and decided to start out the morning dancing naked on my bed...while blasting music.  Now, I don't think it was that loud...but Seth seemed to disagree (sorry Seth....or not!..lol)  Come on...we all needed a pick-me-up Monday morning...nice way to start out the week.  That day I was trying to fall back into normal sleep habits, so I attempted to stay awake all night and day.  It kind of helped a little.  I did manage to muster up the strength to hit Savoy though, and play darts part of the night.  Seth seemed to be a bit of a grouch all day...not sure why.  He functions well with little sleep.  Not my fault he was hungover from the night before.

Speaking of Seth...wow, he's certainly enjoying his alcohol this week.  Four out of seven nights, he managed to get trashed...extremely trashed.  I don't handle drunk people as well as some..so it's  good thing I wasn't out with him those nights.  From past experiences, I've found to let them do whatever they want...I have no sympathy for drunks.

Tuesday was lame...not a whole lot happened that day.  (I SO NEED A JOB....SHOOT ME)  I relaxed most of the day, took Seth to the store (he needed his death-sticks...oh, and food).  After that, I got haircut (wanted it to look good for my photo-shoot this week).  I ended up going to a different guy this time, same salon though.  Only reason I switched people...the last person did a good job, but took waaaaaay to long.  I will say, the salon warned me that the first stylist takes awhile to cut hair.  This time, my haircut time was cut in half...and still looks good.  We'll see how good after the photos get uploaded though.

Wednesday and Thursday were the big days...photo-shoot day.  We split it into two days because of timing reasons.  Wednesday, I did the clothed part of my shoot...we went to Disney and did some fun shots (or so Jonathan says).  We were going to take more pics...but had a slight detour to pick up one of Seth's tricks.  After driving out of our way, getting nearly 3 blocks away, his trick says he can't come over now.  That pretty much wasted our day (Jonathan's and mine)...don't really care about Seth's.  I do give him credit though, he apologized to Jonathan and gave him gas money (meh, me??  nope, no apology).  The one day that I have to try to look somewhat cute for pics that will haunt me forever, didn't matter.  You know damn well, if it were him, and I even thought about picking up a friend...he'd pitch a fit....oh well.

Thursday was the second part of the shoot.  These were more clothed shots, as well as nude shots...yeah, hold your horses, they'll be up soon.  Jonathan was cool that day...got to talk with him and learn about him a little more.  He;s really cool when you get him alone (away from Seth).  Seth, as usual...bailed on helping and spent the day with a trick.  Glad I know who comes first in his life....tricks & complete strangers (over friends, family, & roommates).  Anyway, back to the shoot.  We ended up shooting deep in the woods (off some horse trail)...seemed to be decent.  It was cool to see a little bit more nature...trees, bushes, water...etc.  I'm sure it's been done before, but hope we got some new/good shots.  I'm excited to see them.  After that, I decided to unwind, hit Savoy...and played darts.  Also caught one of the cute dancers there....always a nice sight.

I guess I missed a load of drama that night.  Everyone went to PI...I stayed home (just not feeling it...PI music sucks).  Apparently,  everyone got drunk, stuff was said...cops were involved, and Chaz ended up walking home from PI....over 20 miles.  Took him 7.5 hours to make it home.  No, Chaz wasn't the one who had to deal with the cops...but Chase.  Now, I can't say a whole lot on the matter...I wasn't there....but Chaz, I feel for you... I would have been pissed.  You have FAR more patience and tolerance than me. 

Anyway, to keep it somewhat short...we had our usual Friday house meeting.  Details of the previous night came out.  I guess Chase professed his love for Jonathan, his hatred for Seth, and touched upon his past (as he was curled up in a ball, begging not to get hit).  Again, I can't say anything for sure, as I was not there.  I can say, after all that...a few decisions were made.  Let's break it down;  

Meeting 1 (I was present) - Chase will no longer be moving in

Meeting 2 (I missed half the meeting) - Chase still will not be moving in & needs psychiatric help

Meeting 3 (I wasn't aware of) - Chase will be moving in (but can't drink???)

Now, I only heard about Chase moving BACK in thanks to gossip and my chat (2 days later).  No, I don't hate the guy at all (contrary to popular belief).  I think he's a very outgoing person, who, like anyone...is emotional when drunk.  I am too...so I can't blame the guy there.  As for any other "problems," I don't know because I haven't seen them first hand.  

Only thing I will say....I hope I can be apart of the "House" in the future.  I know I'm passing through, but I do live here.  I'm fully aware that I need to stick out the effort...but seriously?!...I shouldn't have to find out from gossip.

As for the rest of Friday, I hit Savoy, met up with a few friends, played darts, then headed home.  I ended having the 2 friends from Savoy come over after.  We hit the hot-tub, talked, talked, and talked.  They were cool...I told them they're more than welcome to come over anytime.

Saturday....Saturday I didn't feel too good.  I helped Peter load/reload his computer and took him to get some stuff for his system.  I had Saturday off from chat....so I called it a night, and passed out early (10 pm).  Good thing though, I had an important day to follow.

Sunday, I woke up early (7:30)...got ready, and hit Florida Mall (for a seminar/interview).  I applied to Apple Computer....and had a group interview.  Different than what I'm used to, but serves it's purpose.  There were about 20 of us, it seemed to go well...but I find out for sure on Wednesday.  Wednesday, they will actually give us a "yay or nay," which is cool...since most places just let the "nay's" go by the waist-side, without any contact at all.  I'm eager to find out what the outcome is...but won't stop looking for work.  I NEED to work for my sanity.

So all in all, the week was "blah," at least for me.  I hope next week brings a little more excitement my way (good excitement that is).   Everyone else, enjoy your week....try to at least!