Stressful week...

It's been just one of those weeks.  Nothing bad happened, but the whole week was just LONG.  I guess that's nothing new, but just feels different.  I've been looking for places for several weeks now... since before Texas  This week, I'm just vocal about it.  I know some members at CBL are ready for new blood, which is cool... understandable.  CBL has helped me do what I set out to do.  By living here, I've been fortunate enough to have a roof over my head, while finding a job, saving *some* money (or trying to), and finding a place to live.

I know this sounds like an exit blog, which it kind of is... kind of isn't.  This whole week has been hard, both at work & in general.  

Don't get me wrong, work is going well... it just adds to the whole stress of things though.  I think it's more because my mind has been elsewhere, while I'm at work.  People come and go.  I'm able to help most, but not all.  That's nothing new.  I guess I just multiply their problems in my head, because of what I have going on.  I have a tendency to take people's computer issues personally.  When I leave work, it should be just that.  Leaving all that at work.  I just feel for some of them.  In the short interactions we have with our customers, we get to know a little about them and in turn, feel what they feel.  It's not the customers who are a pain in the ass that ruin my day (though they try).  It's the really nice customers who you can tell are lost & frustrated.  You can see it in their eyes, and you want to help... but can only do so much.  I know, it's just computer work.. right?  It's not like I'm a doctor.  But looking at a customer and telling them they're about to lose the last 20 years of photos they have, of their kids birth, birthdays, graduations... it's hard.  Those are the customers which make things even harder.

Anyway, enough of that rambling.  So stressful week.  Looking for places, helping customers, and then the usual bills, bills, bills.  Yes, despite living at CBL, I do have bills.... haha.  Some of you may have forgotten, I had a life before CBL.  I guess it's back to the real REAL world soon.

So my blogs have been getting shorter and shorter.  Not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing.  It's good in the sense, I try not to bore you guys will my week filled with work.  Bad, because I don't have a whole lot new & exciting to share.  Straight to the point I guess.  My written diary follows my video usually, but does stray on occasion.  Usually because I do them one night apart.  Right now, I'm at Jose's place.  Just recently got off work, and came here.  I have an early day at work tomorrow, so it works out that he's closer to work for me.  I did my video last night just so I wouldn't have to do the double drive.  Hopefully you guys don't get too lost with half of what I say.

I know my mind is all over the map tonight, so I'll close this blog on a good note.  After this whole week, I do have some news.  As of tonight, my stress will be cut in half.  I found a place to live.  This coming week shall be my last at CBL.  I know, I know.  Some of you will be happy, others may miss me.  I do have to say to EVERYONE, regardless of your thoughts of me, thank you for being there.  Some more than others, but still... thank you.  Please come to my chats this week and check-in as I prepare to leave.  I look forward to catching you all in chat.  I hope you enjoy your weekend, and have an awesome week to come.

A looong week....

Well, it's been a loooong week.  A decent week, but long.  I guess it was back to the usual.  Work, work, work.  Nothing new in that area.  The big thing to write about is Jose.

Many of you have met him by now.  I've been lucky enough to have him in several of my chats.  He's a real cool guy, sweet, caring and really cute.  As I write this, he's laying next to me, half passed out.  He hasn't been feeling well today (Saturday), so I hope he starts feeling better soon.  Seems as though, something is going around.  It's that time of the year.  I'm starting to feel it as well, so hopefully I wont get too sick.  I can't afford to miss any days at work.  At least I have a day off coming up soon.

That day off, I'll be trying to get a lot done.  This week, I kind of laid low.  I hung out with Jose, did a little grocery shopping (very very minor stuff), and relaxed at home.  I still need to get some real food.  I don't know, guess there isn't too much to report on.  I've been having a great time with Jose, but already 2 weeks in, and we'll be hitting a rough patch.  Not so much because of a personality conflict, more because he's hitting a rough time.  I won't go into too much detail... that's on him to discuss if he wants.  In essence though, his ex made life somewhat tough for him.  Now, he's starting to feel it.  What does that mean?  Well, it means we're both feeling it.  I've kind of been spoiled seeing him almost everyday for 2 weeks.  But as of this coming week, I won't be so lucky.

I'm kind of bummed, but I'll make the most of what I can.  Transportation will be somewhat lacking, so I won't see him as much.  He's also moving a little further away (to help save money).  In addition, he's still looking for work - so money is really tight.  I'll still certainly see him when I can, but not nearly as much as we'd like.  Such is life I guess.  I keep telling him, it'll work out.  He nods, but I don't think he believes me.  I told him, things can only go up from now.... not really sure I believe myself.  I know I make this sound more serious than it is.  It really isn't the END of the world, but I still feel for him.  He wants so much to make me happy, that he kind of puts himself behind me.  I told him.. HE comes first.

I just hope he keeps trying.  It's going to be rough & I'll miss him those lonely nights.  But, he's doing what he needs to do for himself.  I'm here to help him as much as I can, but that's kind of limited.  I'm working just as hard to make ends meet.  I also need to find a place soon!  I guess I'm doing the same thing he is.  I'm deflecting.  I'm trying to put my worries aside by focussing on his "problems."  I've been fortunate to have a place to stay, as Zac has been kind enough to let me stay a little longer.  I'm just stressing out over the usual stuff... food, work, money, a place to live, etc.  I know it'll work out, but I'll still drive myself crazy in the meantime.  Just means I need to get my ass into gear, and get (more) stuff done.

Not really an uplifting diary this week... though, they never are.  More emotions this week than usual.  I'm just blah.  It's been busy.  Right now, I feel like crap and have a huge headache.  I'll be back home tomorrow (at Jose's now).  Hopefully, I'll get him to come to the party.  Just means a LOT of driving back and forth.  Oh well, just happy to be with him.  I actually sleep well when he's around.

I hope everyone else had a decent weekend.  Tomorrow's party should be interesting.  No, I won't be dressed up.  Halloween isn't my thing, but hopefully I'll be awake for part of it.  Until then, enjoy and catch you guys soon.  Have an awesome week to come.