So next day rolls around. This was a sad day, but happy at the same time. Sad - because I had to say bye to Peter. Seth, "applicant Angel," Peter, and I piled into the car to drop Peter off at the airport. I was sad to say bye, but happy for Peter at the same time....I know he was eager to see Mav. I'm not supposed to say this...but someone else in the car also got a little emotional...which was different to see from this individual. So from there (the airport), we drove to Angel's place to drop him off. It was a decent ride overall. Seth gave his fair-well kiss to Angel, said bye, and got in the front seat. Now, for those of you who have been keeping up, you know that Seth & I haven't been on the best of terms for a bit. That made this car ride, that much more interesting. We actually managed to go the whole ride home without killing each other. It started out very quiet....both of us watching what we said. Seth ended up apologizing, as did I....not for any specific event, more because of the way we treated each other. So we got that out of the way....kind of/sort of opened up a little (but not a lot, not yet). All in all, it was a decent ride home.
From there, the story actually starts. Later that afternoon...I had a boy come over. A boy that I had met the previous night at Phouse...named Angel. To clear any confusion, this is NOT "applicant Angel." This will now be Angel 2 (or my Angel). So angel 2 came over and hung out for a little. We hit Fairvilla up (I was interested to see what it was like), talked, then parted. I had to get to chat, and he had to get ready for his evening. I ended up meeting him after chat, at PHouse, where we talked more and I met his roommates. He ended up coming home with me on my motorcycle & seemed to love it, and he stayed the night...which was awesome...I really needed someone to cuddle with.
Next morning, we woke up...he woke me up...and we hung out ALL day. It was a lot of fun...it got me out of the house, with someone cool. We went back to his place during the day, layed out by the pool (which I got burned again), watched a movie, then drove him back here. During the movie, he sent me a cute text...asking me to be his boyfriend. I gave it some thought, definitely thought it was rushing it a LOT....but I said "what the hell," something new, something unexpected, something different...let's see where this goes. So I said "yes." Yes, less than 24 hours, I had a bf....wow...just, um.....wow. It's cool though....he stayed the night again, we cuddled, watched a movie, then passed out. Granted, it's new & unexpected...but I was enjoying myself.
So we wake up, now on Wednesday, I drive him home, kiss him bye....turn around, and drive home. Wednesday was a pretty laid back day. I was up early (for a change), that I didn't know what to do with myself. I went to lunch with Zac & Chase....which was cool. First time I've kind of hung out with Chase (outside the house). After that, I hit up Paradise with Clay & Tom. We did our usual, socialize, play darts, and just chill. I'll definitely be hanging out with both of them, even outside this house...they're really cool. After Paradise, I went back home to do chat. I talked with Angel afterwards, then just passed out.
Thursday was another chill day. I took care of some grocery shopping, hung out all day, went to dinner with Chase, then came back and did chat. Dinner was nice, we talked...got to know just a "little" more about Chase. That night I had late chat. Angel surprised me though, buzzing over when I have chat...and he ended up staying the night. It was a nice surprise to say the least...I was happy to see him. I guess he made a little effort to socialize with Seth & his Angel...which was cool. Decent night overall.
Friday, well...let's just say Friday was a weird day for me. Not sure why, but I was in a mood. I took Seth & Angel to get some stuff taken care of. While doing so, I had made plans to hang with my Angel, but ended up ignoring his calls later in the evening. No, it wasn't something he did wrong, yes...I was a total ass for it. Honestly, I didn't know what to say...or how to act. I just wasn't feeling it...didn't want to deal with anyone that night. I got so stressed, I ended up leaving the house randomly, late at night...and just drove around. Obviously, this worried Angel...and irritated him at the same time...I don't blame him.
The next day (Saturday), after a horrible nights sleep, I got up to numerous missed calls & text messages. Angel was not happy. He didn't know what to think...what he did wrong (if anything). I went thru most of the day, debating what to say...how to *try* to smooth things...at least a little. I liked him, I still do...but idk. I think we rushed things way too fast. I told him I'm a relationship type of person, and I stand by that....but I have to build up to that relationship. I ended up calling him later in the evening and told him that I wasn't ready...just not yet. He wasn't happy, to say the least. Again, I can't blame him at all...I take full responsibility. I was an ass ignoring him....and I feel bad about it. It's something I need to work on....being open with my feelings. I understand where he's coming from, I understand he's hurt, an I know it doesn't make it better....but I did/do like him....I'd like to get to know him more....but that's up to him now. Either way, I respect his decision...and regardless, I wish him the best. He'll probably never believe that, but that's all I can say & offer. I wish you the best Angel!
I skipped a few parts of Saturday...so I'll hit on those briefly. During the say, I hung out with Seth & his Angel and Nube. We went to lunch, then dropped Seth's Angel off at his place. After that, we came back home and I caught up with Jay (at least for a bit). Always cool seeing Jay...very good guy.
Fast forward now...Sunday, day of rest....Seth woke me up to get his bf Angel. We picked him up, met his mom, went to friends of his (Angel's), hit the pool, and relaxed for a few hours. Everyone seemed nice...very warm. From the pool, we hit Savoy and played darts (of course), came home, did our chats, then got ready for the club. After everyone was primped & preened, we went to Savoy (for cheap drinks) then to PHouse (also with Nube). The night wasn't bad...little slow, but not bad. I did run into (or see at least) my Angel...though, we never talked or made eye contact. I wasn't worried so much, but just didn't want to start anything. I guess he had a nice chat with everyone else though. Oh well. After the club, we came home and had a small get-together. Nothing too special...but nice nonetheless. Just had a few cute guys over and had decent conversation. We also had Joey & Robbie over (certainly not strangers to the house). It's always cool seeing them though. If all works out, hopefully I'll be grabbing lunch with Joey later this weekend. Anyway, that's pretty much it. Like I said, all in all...it was a decent week. Few bumps here and there....but when isn't there. Hope everyone has an awesome week. I'm going to shoot for another positive week! :-)
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