Many of you have met him by now. I've been lucky enough to have him in several of my chats. He's a real cool guy, sweet, caring and really cute. As I write this, he's laying next to me, half passed out. He hasn't been feeling well today (Saturday), so I hope he starts feeling better soon. Seems as though, something is going around. It's that time of the year. I'm starting to feel it as well, so hopefully I wont get too sick. I can't afford to miss any days at work. At least I have a day off coming up soon.
That day off, I'll be trying to get a lot done. This week, I kind of laid low. I hung out with Jose, did a little grocery shopping (very very minor stuff), and relaxed at home. I still need to get some real food. I don't know, guess there isn't too much to report on. I've been having a great time with Jose, but already 2 weeks in, and we'll be hitting a rough patch. Not so much because of a personality conflict, more because he's hitting a rough time. I won't go into too much detail... that's on him to discuss if he wants. In essence though, his ex made life somewhat tough for him. Now, he's starting to feel it. What does that mean? Well, it means we're both feeling it. I've kind of been spoiled seeing him almost everyday for 2 weeks. But as of this coming week, I won't be so lucky.
I'm kind of bummed, but I'll make the most of what I can. Transportation will be somewhat lacking, so I won't see him as much. He's also moving a little further away (to help save money). In addition, he's still looking for work - so money is really tight. I'll still certainly see him when I can, but not nearly as much as we'd like. Such is life I guess. I keep telling him, it'll work out. He nods, but I don't think he believes me. I told him, things can only go up from now.... not really sure I believe myself. I know I make this sound more serious than it is. It really isn't the END of the world, but I still feel for him. He wants so much to make me happy, that he kind of puts himself behind me. I told him.. HE comes first.
I just hope he keeps trying. It's going to be rough & I'll miss him those lonely nights. But, he's doing what he needs to do for himself. I'm here to help him as much as I can, but that's kind of limited. I'm working just as hard to make ends meet. I also need to find a place soon! I guess I'm doing the same thing he is. I'm deflecting. I'm trying to put my worries aside by focussing on his "problems." I've been fortunate to have a place to stay, as Zac has been kind enough to let me stay a little longer. I'm just stressing out over the usual stuff... food, work, money, a place to live, etc. I know it'll work out, but I'll still drive myself crazy in the meantime. Just means I need to get my ass into gear, and get (more) stuff done.
Not really an uplifting diary this week... though, they never are. More emotions this week than usual. I'm just blah. It's been busy. Right now, I feel like crap and have a huge headache. I'll be back home tomorrow (at Jose's now). Hopefully, I'll get him to come to the party. Just means a LOT of driving back and forth. Oh well, just happy to be with him. I actually sleep well when he's around.
I hope everyone else had a decent weekend. Tomorrow's party should be interesting. No, I won't be dressed up. Halloween isn't my thing, but hopefully I'll be awake for part of it. Until then, enjoy and catch you guys soon. Have an awesome week to come.
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