I had more bank problems this week, fortunately I planned for it and took most of my money out before they could LOCK IT AGAIN. F*CK WAMU...seriously!!! I'll be looking at other banks this week. I have a few in mind thanks to a few of you.
Monday was definitely a lazy day. I didn't sleep well the night before and work up with a huge headache...which kept me in bed late throughout the day (until 4pm). From there, I chilled around the house...then went out later that evening to the bar with Tom & Clay, and Zachyboi (Zachy's last night in town). I think everyone was feeling a little off that night...everyone had a headache..and Clay was sick.
The next day I woke up late...but not nearly as late as the day before. I made plans to meet up with Clay & Tom at 12...and I woke up at 12:05...so I was late :-/ But I made it there 35 minutes later and had lunch with them (which Clay was kind enough to make - Chinese Chicken)...very good lunch. After that, we dropped Zachyboi off at the airport and then Tom drove us the to beach where we looked around a bit. He pointed out where the Space Shuttle is launched from. Then he just kicked back and chilled at Tom's...watching a movie. I made it back here, did chat, then went on my first date while living here. I met a really nice guy named Patrick...he took me out to dinner (despite it being 11 at night - because of my chat). He seemed really cool...and brought him over that night to cuddle & watch a movie. We never made it thru the movie..haha...but had fun.
The next day I drove Patrick to work (his car was totaled the week before by a truck). I fell asleep as soon as I made it back home. Wednesday was pretty much a blur. I lounged, did some shopping, then picked Patrick up at work. That night we tried again with a different movie, again...no luck. We made it further into the movie, but also had a lot more fun during it. I'm still being careful with him...he seems cool...but I'm not sure how to read him. I'm also new, so not jumping into anything too quickly...I need time to explore. But we'll see what happens.
Thursday, I dropped Patrick off again at work then dealt with the bank. They succeeded in convincing me to close my NEW account. Yay WAMU!!! After the whole bank thing, I chilled with Seth, got out some feelings...and went from there. He's another who's hard to read. But he knows it and intentionally makes it that way. I don't how to feel about him....but at the same time, I do. I guess I can't explain it....maybe I will be able to when he does. This will be a long 5 months.
Friday, Saturday, & Sunday also blur together. These were my longest 3 days of the week...and I don't think it'll get any better for the week to come. There's a huge mix emotions involved. These three days, I was pretty much pissed at the world...and more importantly, myself! I cut myself off from everyone (which is what I do when I get pissed & don't know how to deal with things...this won't change anytime soon) I left the house, turned off my phone, and just wandered, hitting various places in Orlando....movies, mall, bar, store, and just driving in general. I went out to the club in an attempt to forget about stuff...which never happens, especially when you come home alone...and it makes it worse. My own fault though. I pretty much tried to absorb myself by playing darts every night at the bar/clubs. I checked out a few guys, but my heart wasn't in it...it was somewhere else :-(
I don't know...I don't know what to feel right now, I got out some of my feelings...but knew it wouldn't accomplish anything. Being "open" is something that's going to take getting used to. Right now, I don't see the point. It only serves to make others think they have more power than they do...it makes me look weak. Why would anyone want to look weak in life?!? I don't do sympathy, I don't do pity, I don't do guilt! Anyway, we'll see what happens. Tonight (Sunday), I'll be in my own world...hiding again.
**I appreciate responses, but please...not this week, not with regards to this topic....thanks**
*** I still like you, even though I shouldn't***
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